when I first spoke with my friend Ivo about leaving my previous job, I told him the story of the jazz guitar player who was always switching bands:
"I always want to be the worst player in a band" he said, and that is also what is driving me to leave Tomtom. I’m no longer the rookie, the new guy. I no longer feel this excitement of not knowing where things are or how things are done.
so a week, after having arrived in Berlin, I picked up a book on the practice of Buddhism and I bumped into the following words:
In Japan we have the phrase shoshin, which means “beginner’s mind”. The goal of practice is always to keep your beginner’s mind. (…)
In the beginner’s mind there is no thought [like] “I have attained something”. When we have no thought of achievement, no thought of self, we are true beginners. (…)
There is no need to have a deep understanding of Zen. Even though you read much Zen literature, you must read each sentence with a fresh mind. (…)
This is the real secret of the arts: always be a beginner.
is is curious that I get this “beginner’s mind” feeling not only in my new job but with everything that I’ve been through during this past week: leaving Spain behind, leaving my comfort zone of a steady job and a nice warm place, where life was pretty much unsurprising, and go to a place where hardly no one knows me, where the language is totally alien and start all over…
last friday I went to a house concert at Stefan’s place and got a chance to talk to Dan Coyle, the folk singer who played and sang for us, about these feelings as well — after about 3 years of shows and records in the US, he and his girlfriend Jessica (now his fiancé) decided to leave the US and come to Europe. they’ve been traveling, meeting new people, and eventually they sat down for about 6 weeks to work on a new album; away from their comfort zone, using all these new experiences as fresh new inputs for their creative process.
I guess some people need this frightening feeling, this abandonment, this vertigo to fuel their life; in order to reinvent themselves or even just to relearn who they are and what they want in their lives.
people like us, I used to say to my friend Dimitris, are restless — we always need to be moving around, searching for new experiences and new people but we also find home in almost everywhere in the world.